You can probably guess what day I'm writing this.

I have been wallowing and walking slowly for the past few hours. Then I decided to wash my face put on some red lipstick and get to my to-do list, because nothing will stop me from moving forward, I won't let them!!

But now that I'm sitting here, thinking of the things I was/am going to share with you, it feels trite. It doesn't feel important.

Everything feels like a distraction from doing something more important.

I just don't know what that is right now.

So yeah, I'm going to ask how are you doing?

How are you taking care of yourself?

In episode 3x14 we talked about self-care as an act of warfare and we need that perspective more than ever. I'm afraid to relisten to it though because of how optimistic I was while recording it.

You still need eat and feed other people to keep your strength up.

Here is my quick and dirty 6 week meal plan that might be helpful.

Late Fall Meal Plan by sara foote

Here are my messages from where the wound is still raw.

Don't go on a diet - it's just another way for them to take your power away

If you can't put in 100% at this time, don't - putting that pressure on yourself makes it seem like they care about what you do, and they don't unless it helps them

Rest - we will find a way to carry on and make the best of this as we always have, we will find courage that we never knew we were capable of, but we must rest and be open to that possibility for it to come.

I love you and we will get through this together.