Can I be real with you? I need to tell you why I started writing.
- I had all these ideas in my head and I needed a place to get them out
- I have ALWAYS had a place in my heart for helping women, even though I've changed up the ways I've done and am doing it.
- I'm a little bit lonely, not in a sad way, but I don't have a ton of people like minded people to discuss all the existential stuff with.
And I have challenged myself to write daily, to really hone this skill and find my voice and I guess kind of be a vassal for ideas to come to and flow from and just see where that goes.
It's really vulnerable for me to write these thoughts down. My personal overachiever culture means you need to have everything put together and pretty and planned and batched and ready to launch, and hustle, hustle, hustle, make sure you look good, but not too good. And this is NOT that.
My goal, or at least what I'm hoping to accomplish, is to make a place where you feel like you are having coffee, or a glass of wine, or a fancy mocktail with a friend. That you nod along with me or disagree and have your own thoughts. Hopefully one day I can figure out a way to have this be more interactive and conversational.
I have 3 kind of 'role models' in mind when I'm writing and building, well probably more than 3 but we'll call them kind of archetypal energies.
The first is Rachel Hollis, now I am not blind to the ways in which she has been problematic in the personal development world, but she was the first person I saw who was really relatable and made me want to really grasp for more or different.
The second is Mr. Rogers, I haven't actually watched Mr. Rogers in a long time, not even the documentary or Tom Hanks movie, although I keep meaning to. But what I remember from Mr. Rogers in my youth and the little clips that show up randomly, is that you as the child were a part of the show. He was talking TO YOU when he changed his shoes and his cardigan, even though you couldn't speak back if felt like you were a part of the conversation and the little trips he went on. He never was like 'I'm the man and I know everything and here's what you should learn kids' NO! He was taking us all on little trips to learn together and to ask questions together, he was just facilitating. And that's kind of what I want to provide to our generation of moms.
I do have some background knowledge on a bunch of stuff, but I don't want to be your expert on you. I want to help you learn what you need and how you can figure that out on your own. Sure maybe I give some tips along the way of what I learned, but I want it to be symbiotic (that might be the wrong way to use that word, but it feels right).
Last big personal influencer is a youtuber that my husband started watching, and this guy actually kind of motivated me to start something. He made a video all about how he was not looking to make some narcissistic channel all about how cool he was. And he did this whole breakdown on how he was inspired by others when they put their creativity into the world. And it really got me thinking that my fear was just another part of my ego keeping me from doing something I enjoy and might help to add some positive vibes into the world.
I'll link his video, but it's not for everyone for sure, but there was a lot I related to so maybe you'll find it interesting: https://youtu.be/Tz_ETXDqdCU?si=76BX0apnEJVfnYB1
Ok, thanks, I had to get all of that off my chest.
But since I want this to be a back-and-forth I turn it back to you. Is there something that has been on your mind or heart to do? Something just for fun that you can't stop thinking about. It doesn't have to be some big creative endeavor, maybe it's just joining a pickle ball league. I guess what I'm trying to say is that if you keep thinking about something that you want to do, maybe you could use this little piece of random vulnerability to go out there and find the time to do it.
